I'm Back

It's been quite a while but I am feeling like blogging again. So I am back.

I have this horrible quality where I fall too hard.  I always hit the ground running.  When I like something I really like something.  I like it more than anything else and it becomes my everything.  Then I sort of have this tendency to forget that I know about anything else. My world gets so consumed by whatever my latest obsession is.  It is a bit of a problem. And I always get upset when other people don't share the same passion that I do or they don't understand my passion for something.  I don't expect everyone to feel the same way I do about things. But, they could at least try to understand the way I feel.

I feel like I have lost my touch at this. I am hoping that you've all forgotten about it anyhow and won't read this anyways.

I have a habit of making something my world and getting hurt when I'm not it's world as well.

I take things to personally and my feelings get hurt.  

I don't typically bare all my feelings. It takes me a while to open up.  When I do open up I always hope to be well received.  But, I as most females and I'm sure some males, envision things playing out one way and get hurt when they don't actually occur that way.

Which is why for years I've been trying to stop envisioning things down to a T.  I am working on going with the flow.  I'm working on not caring about things so much.  Sometimes I need to open my mouth more and other times I need to just keep it shut.

My mother has told me that I will someday ruin my marriage proposal from opening my big ol mouth at the wrong time.  It has also been said that I will screw up my acceptance of said proposal cuz I suck at speaking.  Even after taking a course on speaking articulately I still feel like an absolutely failure in matters of words.  Talking just isn't my thing.

This post has zero purpose and no sense of direction.  But this is how my mind works. Unorganized. Inconclusive. Any other adjectives of the same idea.